Leading the Ordinary Life

I want to live in pursuit of my dreams and I want to see my dreams come true. In the meantime, I lead the ordinary life that helps me survive while I conquer the smaller tasks that I face.

I'm working two jobs right now. It's rarely fun and it's exhausting. Hard work is harder than I thought, but at the same time I know that I'm doing what I need to do right now. I need to be making enough money to pay off some things and put some money into my savings. And right now working two jobs is my way to do that.

Once I get some of these other issues straightened out, I want to improve my knowledge of music and songwriting. I have been wanting to take some classes on these subjects for a while, but it seems that when it's not time that's the problem it's money. And unfortunately I can't make those problems go away magically. I don't have money lying around to use for those kinds of classes or to invest in demos or travel. All I can do at the moment is work as hard as I can and keep in mind that it will pay off.

We all have to work. We all have bills to pay. That's just what life is right now, but that doesn't mean that it's all bad. When I get home from a day of working both jobs, I pretty much just want to grab something to eat and go to bed, especially if I'm working both jobs the next day. It's a lot of work and it takes its toll, but I try to remind myself to see the inspiration and creativity in my everyday, ordinary life. I interact with all kinds of different people every day. It helps to imagine what my customers lives are like and what makes them who they are. That doesn't mean that I have developed deeply personal relationships with my customers, but from just a few moments of interaction my brain races to fill in the gaps with the information I have. It's a fun way to remind myself to stay creative and continue to be inspired by the incredible possibilities involved in character development.

I may lead an ordinary life now, but I have not lost sight of the things I want for the future. Someday I will actually be spending more of my time doing things that I really enjoy. In the meantime, it's the same old story for me.

~Eliza